A lot to do. A lot to learn. With each realization responsibilities creep in and remain in the soul becoming sometimes unbearable. To write, to educate, to help, to protect...Endless list of tasks for the short remainder of life. One side of the scale becomes heavier and heavier while the other side only collects dust. But it keeps reminding about itself with headaches and heartaches, with fatigue and sadness in the eyes that long for joy.